Saturday, November 29, 2008

--disturbing?

The voices echoed in her head, each one fighting for dominion over her thoughts, taunting her, crushing her, jeering at her. She slammed against the bathroom door, clutching her shoulders and trembling in fear. She snarled at her reflection in the mirror, her red and puffy eyes glaring back at her, sending another tremble of fear through her.
"Leave me alone!" She screamed, running forward and smashing her fist on the mirror where her face was. The glass rippled under her and her reflection spat in her face.
"Shut up you baby stop crying you wimp," It said, punching her in the leg and clawing at her chest. She shrieked in horror, grabbing handfuls of her hair and falling to the ground. She rubbed her arms up and down frantically.
"It's just a joke I'm only kidding I'm just kidding I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal I'm not insane I swear!" She repeated under her breath, rocking up and down quickly. Suddenly she jumped up and screeched at the top of her lungs "LEAVE ME ALONE! SHUT UP STOP LAUGHING! YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME NOBODY DOES BUT I DON'T CARE WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IF I WAS SERIOUS????" She fell onto the counter and smashed her elbow on the sink, then pointed a shaky finger and her reflection, and swore.
"I told my mom, but she didn't believe me..." She hissed happily, taunting herself. Her reflection flashed into a demonic face with blazing red eyes and hatred burning all around her. She screamed and threw herself back against the wall, clutching herself nervously. She muttered uender her breath repeatedly, a cold shiver running through her limbs, and started rocking back and forth, then collapsed to the ground and began to shake.
She spun around suddeny, throwing herself into the mirror. She saw in the reflection a red figure, like a mist, laughing at her. It turned black as she threw her fists toward it. She threw herslef to the ground again in terror as more figures flickered around her, then they all vanished. She immediately returned to clawing at herself with a whole new wave of terror.
"No one can see you! Stop it! You're not getting any attention from your little outburst! We both know you're not serious!" She hissed again.
"No! No! But you called us 'we' and I'm not kidding what if I'm serious?" She screamed. "What if I'm serious? No I can't be! I'm normal I'm normal I'm normal," She repeated, staring hopelessly into her sad, pathetic face. For a moment she thought she looked beautiful, then those red, burning eyes returned and shouted at her.
"Nobody gives a - " She cut herself off.
"Shut up! You're opinion doesn't matter! Get off me! Get off!" She cried in a high pitched shreik, flinging herself to the ground and curling into a ball. She ran her hands through her dark hair which was moist with sweat as millions of voices returned, swirling around in her head, shrieking, whispering, laughing.... taunting her. She began to rock again, and started to mumble a calming song under her breath.

Soon the voices died down and all she was left with was a headache and sore limbs. She stood up, shook her head at the mirror, then left the bathroom.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - t h e - n e x t - d a y - - - - - - - - - - - -

She slipped into class, smiling brightly and greeting her friends cheerfully. She sat down by her best friend and immediately began talking to him.
"Hey how are you?" She asked.
"Good, you?" He said.
"I'm fine." She replied, putting her textbook on the ground beside her desk.
"Sweet. What did you do last night?" He asked. She laughed half-heartedly.
"The truth would scare you."

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